The 20's dilemmas of emotions and exposer.

I really don't know how to put it down right here right now, and this is the first major dilemma that every 20 yrs old can relate to me, yes! i am talking about the hundred and thousands of assertive, interrogative and negative thoughts roaming in mind every time at every situation and everywhere and that's what makes you handicapped when you really want to liner your thoughts....... but hey let's try it.
 
I am not saying 20's is too tough but yes i am saying its not easy too. well this is not just age no but it is a phase when you should, you get to and need to expose to world and to the human's complicated emotions too, well like every other phases of life you get to experience new  things, as from 1st day  of school to 1st time you speak out before huge audience , to  1st time  giving your board exams , 1st time going out with your friends , every time slowly and slowly you get to add some new things to your self that some how creates your own personality , but in 20s there is a little change in this chain , from now you get to test your personality , in every way possible, there is a lot of queries by you to your own self, and at the same time there is a lot of fear of new exposer, of losing past nostalgic memory, regret of something , the bombarding non likeable experiences and career choices so on and so forth. 
 Elaborating it little more, at this age , the most difficult part is that you find yourself in so many guess works , with your very unmature 20 saal ka tajurba ...  one of the most common queries that mind does over so many things that, am i that mature or old enough to do or take that particular decision, or some other times that, now am i not that small girl to be like some particular way... well growing is a really beautiful process but at this stage it often afraids me , not because i am afraid of new change but because i am so much unaware of the uncertainty of the consequences of so many actions and decisions. the outer world is just outside the door , now i need to collect all of my important things pack in my bag pack  from inside the door and open the door with a deep long breath and get ready for outside adventure ....... 
[Dora the explorer ....😇}


 









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